Please dont Die

I understand the fascination. I’ve been there once or twice, but if you don’t do something about it, you’ll die. Please don’t die. Relax, take a deep breath, it’s just a phase.

It is just a phase…..

It is not something permanent, although it may seem like it forever, but trust me, it too shall pass. Maybe sooner, maybe later. You can ask from time for the answer, but don’t be mad if time didn’t say anything, time is always silent. Time likes to give surprises. Time thinks it’s funny…..

Fear not, if you can see into the details, time is sloppy, time likes to play games, you can see thru the cracks and see the tell tales. It always happen, in an indirect but direct kinda-ish way. You just have to keep an eye open, even an ear or two, but definitely an open mind, and you can see it too. Just remember the golden rule. Ask for it. No point of getting the answer if you didn’t ask, and it is more of a paradox if the answer is given before the question happens (but sometime, it does happen that way, but that is another story to be told)

From the flaws of time, hopefully you can see that what you ask is given.But it does seems like it is going to take forever, doesn’t it? It all depends on how you see it. Best way to put yourself in a different light, that is to see that YOU DO get to see the revelation before you die. Cause if you die, then forever you will never know. So it is not really long the duration, unless of course it was not meant to be. Did I mention time can be cynical too? Sigh….

A phase is just a phase, it can be 2 hours, it can be 2 months, it can be 2 years, doesn’t really matter, when you are through, you will be through, and be through about it. You’ll get by it and ponder about it when your old, and laugh your ass off. And if it is not a laughing matter, then u will no longer be crying about it because you will wiser by then…..hopefully.

And now here is the kicker, even you know how it just a phase, many more will not understand, cheer them up. All is good. Sheep get its fur shaven, but they don’t die, because sheep knows it shall grow back. So if you are having a bad luck, do remember, it too shall pass…..

fate

in life there is no coincidences, there is only inevitable.....

all this happen for a reason, and once you see with your eyes, u can never turn back from fate.

the end of a march, begining of the swagger

airight, seems like after last saturday gath, it is confirmed that i had too many free time. the websites that i recommend is indeed shows i took the liberty to find and read it. why shouldn't i? rather than finding some porn site, (like, ehem youporn....) there are better thing in this big wide web. so this post im gonna recommend some site that i find it interesting n fun to read. Believe me, there is some blog/website that is dreadful to watch, like...eemmm, Ultra Kawaii....

so first that i would like u to read is this , 'whatikilledtoday', it done by a vegan vegetarian veterinary..... who eulogized the animals that he/she euthanized. It may sounds sad, but it gives some inside on what animals that has been brought to be euthanized. i find it interesting.....

another is 'The Top 100 Things I'd Do If I Ever Became An Evil Overlord', http://www.eviloverlord.com/lists/overlord.html and http://www.evilrulers.com/eviloverlord.htm (if you have the time, i think u can find some more). like it said in the website, this list has been going on since the '90's where it lists down all the do's and don't if you are evil megalomaniac who wants to rule the world. So guys, or bad guys, learn from mistakes in the movies, read this first.

the third blog which i really recommend you to read is ' The Darth Side:Memoirs of a Monster'.
It is Darth Vader's personal blog..... 'nuff said i recommend you to read the blog from bottom to top. somehow it make more sense n more fun. :p

uff did i miss anything? here are some links in youtube that u simply must watch, for amusement, wasting time, to laugh out loud while u are still in the office. if u still have one :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1uwOL4rB-go 'jeff dunham, achmed the dead terrorist'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6AMlKYl4KVk 'im gonna fuck your mom'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDKcevMFUCo 'girly man, english version'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_qcQWSNepM 'geli mat, malay version'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3far9oHZOsI 'rubber johnny' this is creppy goddammit!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKbi33lErFs 'Japanese english class' snips from gaki no tsukai, until now it still cracks me up.

that all for today.


oh, im moving out from my house, so it will take some time for me to be online after this. bummer dude....

character

'Everyone has the obligation to ponder well his own specific traits of character. He must also regulate them adequately and not wonder whether someone else's traits might suit him better. The more definitely his own a man's character is, the better it fits him'.
Cicero (106 BC - 43 BC)

'You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself one'.

moving out.

moving out from Bangsar, finally......pphheeww....

i fell it has been ages since the day i got back from Turkey and stayed away from my family, even tho its like 40 mins away by driving or LRT, it has become my heaven on earth where i can submit my self to what ever worldy pleasure and sin without some one knocking on the door saying "DXXXXL!!! Have u wash the dishes? DXXXXL have u clean ur room??!! " it have been quite a blessing for me staying in Bagsar for all of this almost 4 years, but now its time to move out. (2003 till 2008, yeap, almost 5 years)

basically im just tired of staying here where not much interaction with the other roommates, who prefer to sit in thier room. it wont kill you to mingle with the other roommate, or at least i wont kill you. alas it has been like that all this years and presume they prefer it like dat. i have totally given up in this matter. But what im really sick and tired of is me doing all the house cleaning every month without any help from the others, that really pisses me off.

beside, Bangsar nitelife has fizzled out since last year. time to find a different place with a better pulse in life.

of late im looking for an apartment, preferbaly 7th floor, and the apartment has to be on a hill. medium room will do just fine with me. and hope the new tenant dont mind me bringing in a few cats tho, i dont think Mumu n Koffi can live without me. or viceversa.

if i cant find a place i have to move in with my family........

urgh, i can already hear my mom voice ringing in my ears.....


die lor....

happy belated

it has been 15days since my birthday. woke up early and wash my face with water (what else, duh)

i feel no different.

oh well, guess the magic of birthday has fizzle abit.

even tho i dun feel much different, i do know things are changing for me, for once, all the ambigous, the hazieness, the smoke in front of my eye, the things that im blur about, is finally clearing, i could see where my life will lead.

i might actually know what to do with my life.

hey!! Happy Birthday!

its going to be one hell of a ride!!

my cat broke my sink

few weeks ago i my cat broke my sink..... into pieces. no shit, it really did happen.
i can hear ppl saying a lot of OMG, and WTF!! but the it is the truth.

as always i put my cat into the sink and bathe them, since that is the only place where they move arnd the least (but they still scream a lot tho). As i was bathing the 3 cat, the sink gave in and went tumbling down. luckily no one was hurt. and yes the cats was fine too.

what to do? i guess my cats are a little bit too big for the sink. now i have to run around the bathroom everytime i bathe them . bummer.